My Calling - Part 2
A girl so passionate about people and God, a girl whose life and smile shines so bright that it brings joy to people around her -- her name is Isabela. Girl, thank you so much for letting me be part of your blog! Love you. <3
Discovering My God-given Calling
A little bit about myself — I grew up in a broken family. My parents were divorced when I was 2. I was living with my dad after the divorce and my mom would have me during the weekends. My dad and I moved to Malaysia when I was 7 and I completely lost contact with my mom because I didn’t know how to make any international calls.
I lived most of my life with my dad, so ... I’m a daddy’s girl. Unfortunately, my dad passed away when I was 13. He had a heart attack. My dad was my hero, he loved me unconditionally, he was my everything. Life became really hard to live after he passed away because the rest of my family weren’t so loving. My grandparents valued men over women and they never liked me when I was growing up. My aunts and uncles were the same. Because of that, my heart grew bitter and angry. I became really unforgiving and grew to hate them.
My life has never been the easiest. There were times where I would sit on my bed and cry “God, can you please take me home? Please?”
And one day I was just so fed up with it all, that I curled up on my bed and cried for 2 hours, asking God the same question over and over again: “Why is it me that has to go through all this pain?” This time God answered me. He whispered into my ears, “Because I want to use you.” “Because I want to use you” … God said that to me. I sat up on my bed and I was in shock.
Philippians 1:23-25 “I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith.”
This scripture showed me the purpose of my life. When I thought my life was a total mess, Jesus said that He would turn my mess into a message, and that message would be my testimony. This completely shifted my perspective on why I went through all of this pain on earth. Not that God intended for me to go through pain and hurt, but because He would be with me through it all.
From that moment on, I knew that I should stay and not go “home” quite yet. Why? So that I could share my story on how God has redeemed me and to help others who are going through the same thing that I went through.
God placed Women's Ministry on my heart in a time when I hated women the most (yeah, I know. I myself am a woman too). I didn’t like women because the women I knew always tore each other down instead of building each other up and there was always never ending drama. It was (and can still be, exhausting). I just wanted to stay far, far away from women because I never knew that I could actually be the change around women.
“I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith.” — I want to be the change amongst women. I want to tell them that there is a God that redeemed a mess like me. I want them to know that there is a heavenly Father who loves them. I want to walk alongside them.
What is your calling? It’s okay if you still haven’t figured that out yet. But whether you know what your calling is or not, I believe we are called to love people the way that God has loved us!
I’m sure y’all have seen this verse over and over again, but I’m gonna leave you with this:
Matthew 28:18-20 “Then Jesus came to them and said, ‘All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptising them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.’”